A hand that won’t let go.

I had the worst dream in my life last night. A lot worse than letting go of a guy I love most or failing in an exam.  I dreamt of losing my mom.

 And though it was just a brief dream, the pain hasn’t left my chest until now…

 

The Spice Girls’ song said it all. She used to be my only enemy and never let me be free. Moms are really the worst enemy we could get. Their long list of do’s and don’ts drives us nuts, nonstop sermons, utos-dito-utos-do’nka-KJ-an and the list goes on. In addition, my mom is no different from moms we used to abhor.

 

But I’ve come to think…

 

My mom is the first person who made me feel that I am worth fighting for. Why? She could’ve cared more ‘bout herself (and her figure) and choose not to bear a child. She could’ve just lived a better life had she not been pregnant. But she chose me. She cared for me a lot more than she cared for herself. And even if then, I was just worth a drop of blood, to my mom, I am everything.

 

In my 17 years of existence, mom is the only person who never stops caring for me, even if the world finds me unloving. And sometimes I wonder, what would make mom stop loving me?

 

          Unkind words?  Nope, I have said the harshest words she can hear from a child.       

         Countless mistakes? Nah. She accepts me error after error and feels joy in  seeing me learn from them.

          Dangerous liaisons? Not even. She loves me even more each time I rise from a fall after getting blinded and wounded.

 

I can go on and on enumerating the headaches, heartaches and troubles that I caused my mom. But no matter how bad I can be, she just never stops loving me.

 

My mom has seen me in my every fall. And everytime she sees me break into pieces, she even shares my pain, she never gets tired of picking me up from my fall, willing to do just about everything to make me whole again.

 

Yes, life is tough. But with God as the center of my life and my mom and my family by my side, no storm can ever bring me down.

COULDN’T ACCESS MY SIMS ANYMORE. FUCK YOU FACEBOOK.
Weather’s actually gooooood.

Today’s a beautiful Sundaaay. It’s nice to wake up like this everyday.

My plans for this long weekend:

  • Go to Tagaytay
  • Spend quality time with family
  • Contemplate and relax
  • Treat myself a little something (i know i deserve it)
  • Palace in the sky walktrip
  • Church
  • Review for midterms
  • Get a good ‘ol 8-hour sleep erday
  • Make fried oreos

It’s going to be a productive weekend ;)


"A picture is worth a thousand words."

K, I just remembered something before I was up at the stage. I ALMOST FELL BECAUSE OF THE 3-STEP STAIRCASE at the backstage. HAAAAAY. What the hell. Good thing I didn’t tripped while doing my so-called ‘cat walk’ at the stage. Anjo kase, DAMING PAKULO! It was a great night, though. I said it once and I’ll say it again. Anjo’s debut is definitely the PARTY OF THE YEAR. Nope, no doubt about it.
Meron akong joke

thekrispykim:

Paano ginawa ang Lasalle CSB?

edi, BE-NILDE.

THE GIFFF hahahaha

Melancholy. Today,

is officially the most melancholic moment of my life. I’ve never felt so lost, hurt, distressed and gloomy all my life ‘til now. Grabe, di ko mapigil luha ko habang nag ta-type.. I can’t think of what to write.. I want to burst my feelings out pero kanino?

I don’t want to talk to anybody. At least, not today. Not now. Ang sakit sa puso. The pain is excruciating. I never thought he could say those words.. That thought.. From him. From his own mouth. I know it really is my fault, but.. 

UGH I just can’t feign this ‘feeling’. Ugh. Yoko na. I’ll end this here. I don’t want anyone thinking that ……. UGH

Just know that i love you. I do. Happy birthday.

twntysxth:

formerathlete:

The article goes into more details explaining why and how, but these are the 15 things that it recommends:

  1. Don’t restrict calories
  2. Go to bed early
  3. Eat more protein
  4. Go organic
  5. Stand up
  6. Drink ice water
  7. Eat spicy food
  8. Eat breakfast
  9. Drink coffee or tea
  10. Load up on fiber
  11. Get more iron
  12. Get more Vitamin D
  13. Drink milk
  14. Eat watermelon
  15. Stay hydrated

I NEED THIS

^ LIKEWISE.

Water shrimps; HEAVEN! Craving for some mother effin’ thai foooood.
I like being with you. A lot.
We all have these spreads here at home. All from London. THANK YOU DADDY. =))

i-smashed:

alexdesireskirklong:

it’s almost kirk long’s birthday! :) he’s turning 23.. I’m seventeen and twenty-three isn’t that old for me, right? hehe.

my bitter friends say that i’m a weirdo. i don’t think that’s fair. why would you think of me that way if ur my friend. right? BV. tae! snasabi pa nila PANGIT si kirk and…

so, i’m planning to eat pasta ALONE on his birthday. :)”

LOL LEXI. I FIND THIS LINE SOOOOO FUNNY. =)) Hay nako lexi. SIMON ATKINS IS SOOOO MUCH POGI-er/SEXIER/HOTTER/BETTER than your KIRK LONG. Go ask everyone else. HAHAHA. Di kita inaaway, just stating the facts. HAHA. Yer prolly tumblring at the desks of the lib now while we, keysean and I, are currently looking for gowns. Keysean’s excited for her deubt! HAHAHAHAHA. Anyways, 2.30 na pala. We’ll log out na at Cybrary. SWIMMING TIME. Lilipat pa tayo sa DentSci. Tinatamad ako maglakad, hehe. Love youuuu lexi :)) See ‘ya laterrrr.

when’s her debut? :) am i invited?? HAHAHAHAH :)) i feel so tired. i just got home from school. i feel like dying.. :l i can’t feel my bones. :(( okaay. back to our discusion.. kirk long is better :D kirk’s an atenean.. he got the looks and the brain and the ATTITUDE. :D atkins?? hmmpf. pwede-na-rin.. :D **peace** cguro sa kanya nman, looks and money $_$ peace yshi.. i’m allergic to those guys.. i mean.. ung mga heartbreaker :D

Kaka uwi ko lang kaninang 8. </3 mas tired akoooo. Pero ramdam ko pa naman mga buto ko =)) the looks and the brain? WEH. ANO NGA ULIT COURSE NIYA DON? HAHAHAHA =)) ikaw nagsabe non! :p Attitude, mhm, okay sige. Panalo kirk long mo. PERO OHHH LALALAAAA. ANG FUGIII TALAGA NI ATKINS. It was like, love at first sight. ♥

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alexdesireskirklong:

it’s almost kirk long’s birthday! :) he’s turning 23.. I’m seventeen and twenty-three isn’t that old for me, right? hehe.

my bitter friends say that i’m a weirdo. i don’t think that’s fair. why would you think of me that way if ur my friend. right? BV. tae! snasabi pa nila PANGIT si kirk and…

so, i’m planning to eat pasta ALONE on his birthday. :)”

LOL LEXI. I FIND THIS LINE SOOOOO FUNNY. =)) Hay nako lexi. SIMON ATKINS IS SOOOO MUCH POGI-er/SEXIER/HOTTER/BETTER than your KIRK LONG. Go ask everyone else. HAHAHA. Di kita inaaway, just stating the facts. HAHA. Yer prolly tumblring at the desks of the lib now while we, keysean and I, are currently looking for gowns. Keysean’s excited for her deubt! HAHAHAHAHA. Anyways, 2.30 na pala. We’ll log out na at Cybrary. SWIMMING TIME. Lilipat pa tayo sa DentSci. Tinatamad ako maglakad, hehe. Love youuuu lexi :)) See ‘ya laterrrr.



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